Serious Stuff

I have had a lot of serious stuff going on in my life the past few weeks.

The end of March I went to the ob/gyn for the yearly visit. For those of you women readers (do I even have any men reading my blog?) we know this is not a fun visit but I was sort of looking forward to it, I had some questions and concerns about female STUFF and was hoping to get some answers and help. I left with not all my answers but felt good about the outcome, I was to get an ultra sound later in the week to help rule out or diagnose what was going on for sure. The ultra sound was almost as unpleasant as the previous visit I had that week. The technician wasn't very friendly but not rude, but she had made some "wierd" comments during the examination. She politely told me my doctor would call later that day or the next day(Friday) with the results. This is where the waiting began and phone tag began.

Two weeks later on a Friday at 4:55pm I get a call finally from the PA. She tells me I don't have the one thing they were looking for orginally but...there is a growth on my right ovary. She also says the doc. is saying it "has to come out" and soon. Also that I will have to have a CA-125 test which is a cancer marker test. I am told to come in on Monday to get the blood draw and the doc.'s nurse will call to set up the surgery some time in the next week. Boy Jef and I had a lot to talk about that next night on date night.

I went on Monday to have the simple blood draw. I was told the results could be in as early as 3 days or as long as 7 days. In the mean time, my Gpa Arbaugh started doing some unexplained things. He was going down hill and fast, loosing his mind wise anyway. My sister had an appointment for him set for Friday with his doc. in Twin Falls. By time that day had come he was very incoherent and had lost control of bodily functions. While he was at the doc. I was in SLC shopping with my neighbor and received a phone call first from the PA again saying the CA-125 test was normal (meaning no cancer). I then received another phone call from the nurse to schedule surgery (June 1). Then another call came in Gpa has a mass in on his brain he is going for more tests. Another call later he has a very agressive brain tumor and it is bleeding putting pressure on his brain, and his health makes it non-operable. As a family they decided to take him home and try to make him comfortable but the end was very near.

I came home from SLC (with new furniture of course) and we left Sunday morning to see my gpa. He didn't look sick but I could tell he wasn't the same. He still laughed and joked with both Jef and I but it was sad to have to say good bye and most likely for the last time. He passed away Wednesday morning.

I am soo thankful for the knowledge of the gospel and to know that this life is not the end. I know that I will see him again and be with him and my mother. I am sort of jealous he got to see her first, but I can wait till it is my time.

Wendy and I both spoke at his funeral and that was nice to be able to tell about his life and our memories of him. He will always be so special to me. I loved him soo much, he was a good man and taught me so much. I know how to irrigate, fish, go wormin and camping thanks to him. I know that if I play with fire I will pee the bed, not really I proved him wrong on that one. I also know that family was important to him and he liked to think about things. I love you gpa arbaugh and I will see you on the other side.

Sorry for the long post, one last thing. I will be having surgery on June 1st. I will be having the right ovary and my uterus removed and a bladder sling installed. Next post to be more light I promise.